Inspiration and Drive!

As I blogged about earlier, I really want to try and loose weight this year. 

Let's say I'm more Beth Ditto, than Angelina Jolie.

I vary a lot in clothe sizes, it can be one extreme to another, but I'd like to be a 14, and maybe then head for a 12, but I feel that 14 is a good size to stay and loose weight as healthily and safely as possible. 

So I've taken a long look at how I'd like to look, and taken inspiration from a number of celebrities, warning that this is a bit of an image heavy post, but it's to get the general idea. 

 

Rihanna, Kim Kardashian & Kelly Osbourne. 

These three ladies, are definately my body inspirations, they're still WOMEN, the have curves and are so beautiful, and I find that their figures are the best image to look up to, not wanting to be a size 6, but to love your curves. I have to learn to love mine, I've been given my mother's hips, thighs and bum, and Rihanna shows this and so does Kim. I find Kelly incredibly inspirational with her weight loss, I feel I have something in common with Kelly, when I used to watch her on MTV all those years ago with her bright pink hair, and she was a "larger" size, I feel she has shown it is possible and she looks fab now. Doesn't she?!

So saying this, I have decided to really push myself this year, last year I lost 2 stone, and was really proud, but didn't seem to want to keep going, I don't think I was in the right mentality, I'm doing this to make myself happy and to be healthy particcularly, it's better to take these things into hand at a young age. 

Some images to drive me....

I've realised I need to watch what I'm eating, over the Christmas period I always felt stuffed, but when I'm at Uni I realise I'm not eating enough, so I'm going to make weekly plans for the first few weeks of second term and try and get into either eating three good meals a day, or having five little meals, to keep my metabolism up. I have also started trying to drink two litres of water a day, this is proving harder than I thought but I am really trying, I can do five glasses easily, but getting it to ten always seems a push, I try drinking a glass with every meal, then a couple in between and always keep one by my bed at night. 

My main thing is to start exercising, I walk to and from Uni and in and out of the City Centre as much as possible, but ideally i'd like to go on long walks around the country and up hills to really start, I'm also going to sttart swimming in the local Aquatic centre once or twice a week, I'd ideally like to find a little buddy to come with me! 

And lastly, sleep, I'm totally deprived of the stuff living in student halls, I have no pattern, I'm never in bed before 2am, and it's impossible to function properly this way, so I've decided that 4 nights a week I should really be ready for bed around 9pm and going to bed at 10.30pm. This way I know I will be getting a decent nights sleep, at weekends obviously it may be a later night. 

I apologise if this has been total waffle and boring but it's something I felt like blogging about, and I feel if I do blog about it, it will give me more of that push. 

B. x

all images taken from weheartit.com - here

2011 ♥

image courtesy of weheartit

So here we are in a New Year, and along with a this comes new beginnings, new goals, aspirations and many other things. I'm not happy to be leaving 2010 behind, unlike what I have read in a number of blogs, facebook updates, and tweets, many people couldn't wait to see the back of 2010.

Personally I feel that 2010 and was the year I really got to know myself, and I became an adult. I moved from my family home in the countryside of Northern Ireland to go to University in Manchester in September, and boy, that was the most difficult thing I have ever done. I am exceptionally close with my mum, not weirdly close though (haha), but leaving her behind was very difficult. I have relished being at home for Christmas and New Year, but I have now learnt being away from home has giving me so much independance and confidence, and I plan on doing more of this. 

I have never been the most confident person, but knowing that I have it in me has given me the kick to do things for myself and stop relying on others etc.

So, why am I writing? I guess to make some resolutions for myself, and I feel I  may track my progress on them, whether it will be positive or negative. 

My main resolution is to loose weight, such a typical thing, but I have battled with this issue on and off for a long time, I'm at my "happiest" I have ever been with my weight, but I feel that I could push myself much more and ideally I want to drop another 2 to 3 dress sizes, I'm not going by weight, I feel that made me really hung up, I'm going by body fat and inches off my body by measuring myself weekly and see if this makes any difference. My main thing is to look for a form of exercise I enjoy doing, I think I may start swimming as I did a lot of it as a child. I also will be cutting down a lot of meal sizes, and eating more regularly to get my metabolism working. 

My next resolution is to budget myself, being at University I have been left without a job, I am going to try and maybe find some bar work for term times, my problem with a job is that I will be taking periods of time off due to being term ends, so I will be travelling back to Ireland in these breaks. So while I have no proper income I need to budget my nights out, shopping sprees, and buy food which is on offer, this is going to benefit me for my future also. 

And finally, I need to do more for myself, I'm a people pleaser, I do so much for other people and get no thanks for it, so I have decided to grow a bit of a selfish streak and for once make myself happy. My problem which all my friends and family keep reminding me, is that I'm too "nice", which leaves me wide open to being used and let down. I'm not saying I'm turning into someone nasty. I just want to do a bit more to please me, treat myself once a month with something, not going along with the crowd, just generally putting my foot down. 

 

 

I have also decided, I am going to really try and set this blog off, I haven't many followers at all, but the few I have I am appreciative off, so I am going to set aside a few days a week and just write about something, I might start with weekly summary's and FOTD/FOTN etc. We'll see what the future brings. 

 

I hope all you dolls had a really lovely Christmas. And I wish you all the very best for the year of 2011! 

Make everyday the best, including it's ups and downs :)

B. x